When I was fairly young, I was quite the vivacious child… carefree, spirited, and perky to a fault. I would drown myself in happy chatter with random strangers, I would twirl and dance at every beck and call in public functions (or places), and I would pose in front of any camera with a mega-watt smile deserving of the Little Miss Philippines title. I was still highly opinionated, frank, and of course, very naughty but back then it was mostly endearing and charming. How can you fault a five year old for speaking her mind and wanting to get her way, right? She wouldn’t know any better (I certainly didn’t).
Of course, as maturity sets in–a product of nurture (ie: values formation from an educational institution and from your parents), I believe–a person has to adjust their rapport and attitude in a way that is deemed socially-acceptable. I had to buy myself some tact the moment I hit 12 or fear offending everyone within a 3 meter radius, and I had to learn to accept “no” as an answer and realize I wasn’t as important as the Queen of Wales for everyone to cater to my every whim (goodbye tantrums). But what came with that sacrifice–the so-called, letting go of innocence (or ignorance)–was a certain wisdom and empathy, one that’s quite important as we go through life.
Because I became so engrossed with the people around me–understanding why they acted a certain way, living up to their expectations–I lost that child-like spark and wonderment I used to have. In effect, I detested attention, I would speak only when needed, I retreated from social functions, and I pored over books of all kinds (though I had a solid group of friends who shared the same interests and acted in the same fashion). I literally became Charlie from Perks of Being a Wallflower, minus a dose of Asperger’s. Don’t get me wrong, some things never change as I was still quite candid when asked for my opinion (acerbic and self-deprecating) but I hardly ever volunteered my thoughts. I liked having my own inside jokes and having my own evil thoughts, but that was back then during the interim between being a child and being an adult.
Of course, I grew into my current self and found it necessary to pull back and reconnect with my childhood past wherein I had to reclaim that tenacity and drive to make it in the real world. I think what makes it a deadly combination is that, I already had the capacity to be insensitive and selfish from when I was young, but this time, I was armed with a better understanding of people based on my years of observing how they function–their thought process, their next move, what makes them tick, their insecurities, and their emotions. It’s perhaps why I pretty much excelled in Scrabble (I competed in High School and won a National title)–I had a decent vocabulary and I knew how to psych out my opponent to the point of distraction.
So when people tell me that I’m actually a very nice person, I don’t actually buy it. I know me. I don’t want to delude myself into thinking that I am nice. Perhaps I still have that well-cultivated and practiced tact that I take out to use once in a while, and yes, I always reserve judgment towards individuals who’ve done me no wrong, but I don’t think that qualifies or even quantifies me as nice. It’s being unapologetically human. Yes, I am innately good, I am one of God’s children, and I am fiercely loyal and I’m not exactly deprived of emotions, but calling me nice would be a gross… over-calculation.
People who had deemed me nice in the past (mistaking my low-keyness as pleasantness) and who had tried to take advantage of it, has experienced full-hand my wrath (some of them may still be experiencing it). But like I said, I don’t bite unless provoked and I don’t play games. I will forgive, but I will never forget, and I won’t be as stupid to allow anyone to make the same mistake.
So no, I am not nice. I am not nice because I like to stand up for what I believe in and I like to call people out on their bullshit. The term nice sounds so double-edged and sugarcoated. Only a select few are genuinely nice (of course, they exist)… Pope Francis, Madre Teresa, my sister… but you know, I would rather be horribly misunderstood as the spawn of Satan than be mistaken for someone who is nice for an ulterior motive. I detest people who are unreal and untruthful–even to themselves. I think it’s high time everyone becomes more discerning with the people they look up to–they have to see past the packaging and the marketing ploy, and whatever beautiful but dishonest story they fashioned out of conceit. Yes, a reality check is never pleasant but hey, if it gets you ahead in life then why not?
I got this pair of Prada Tortoise-shell framed sunnies just recently from Glasses Online. As I’ve previously mentioned, I’m a huge fan of designer sunglasses–I’m just really fond of the quality and “make.” Likewise, I’m always one for classic styles and so I chose this particular piece as I felt it would complement my current wardrobe (which is mostly warm in tone). Anyway, we all know that designer sunnies aren’t cheap at all–it doesn’t matter if it’s Prada or Dolce & Gabbana or Ray-Bans, they still make a dent in your wallet especially for something you don’t exactly get to don for more than 3 hours at a time (and only when the sun’s out at that). I’m glad to share with everyone that I’ve discovered Glasses Online, by far the cheapest store to sell designer glasses! I compared their price points with optical stores and I vouch 100% for it to have the best price guarantee!
The moment I got this watch from Daniel Wellington last week, I fell in love with it. It’s just too classy for words, really–with the rose gold, the swarovski index stones, and the chocolate brown straps. Everything about this watch exuded a sort of casual elegance. If you’ve noticed, this is quite different from the usual Daniel Wellington watches a lot of people are sporting–yes, it still has that signature minimalist design but my timepiece specifically is the smaller 26mm version that’s very flattering on my wrist and lady-like, not to mention, it is adorned with swarovskis. It’s seriously all in the details, if you ask me!
Anyhow, I know for a fact that a lot of people are lusting over Daniel Wellington timepieces–my sister is a huge fan as well. I’m glad to announce that Daniel Wellington ships worldwide and if you do decide to purchase, I can give you a 15% discount by encoding “SUN-KONICHI” when you check-out the item. Hurry, the discount is only available until the 10th of September!
Manila Sundance Bazaar Part 3 is coming your way soon! As you all may know, I’m a huge fan of this bazaar (see my previous post here about it)–I normally am not fond of Bazaars in general as I say all the time (save for Blogger’s United and Supersale/Superb) but this one is just one of the best in the metro, a “must go” with a cult following of various personalities in fact! They also have quite the roster of online shops participating, not to mention, their themes and the whole boho-hipster vibe is just too cute for anyone to ignore. So please do tab September 05-07 and you’ll most definitely see me there!