It’s been raining a lot quite recently, thus making it difficult for me to take outdoor photos utilizing natural light. In fact, this week alone was devoid of ample sunshine, getting gloomy without fail around mid-afternoon, and then drizzling thereafter. I used to tell relatives and friends from abroad that the Philippine weather was somehow bipolar–seemingly pleasant with the endless amount of tropical heat during the summer, but hiding a manic and sinister side to it in the form of the tumultuous stormy season.
Considering it’s the last few days of Summer (or maybe it isn’t anymore), I’ve decided to take advantage of my favorite summer staples like this outfit I wore to a house-dinner with close friends–specifically: sheer fabric, tiny shorts, and open-toed sandals. It was a pretty relaxed affair, I wanted to look and feel comfortable without appearing too sloppy or casual… so yes, we traded in the Armin event for a night of wine with homemade Korean barbecue!
Apart from the good food, we were all entertained by each other’s company as well. We started off with shallow topics that touched on showbiz news and fashion, then went on to the deeper stuff like keeping one another updated with what’s happening in our lives… perceived struggles, successes, and in-betweens.
There were so many stories ranging from career options to planned beach trips, and then… certain earth-shattering revelations that somehow, allowed us all to strengthen our bonds toward one another. All in one night!
Whenever I look at each and every single one of them, I realize that my obstacles are peanuts next to theirs. I guess it’s really humbling to realize that your problems, no matter how difficult they may seem, will never compare to another person’s conflict. Back when I partied for fun in clubs, I was always told by close friends that my strong willpower to avoid liquor allowed me to take on the “spectator” role in life and observe people participating in inebriated spectacles. I’m not entirely sure if that’s a good thing seeing as it translates to: “you’re so boring” but at the same time, it makes me think, “Hah, I’m the only one who can remember all the stupid things everyone did!”
The funny thing is, I was pretty much the same in real life back when I was younger! I’ve always been the type of person to merely observe and look… I was a wallflower and I dwelled on thoughts merely contained in my head, living on introspection and very minimal interaction. I figured, I don’t like getting my hands dirty and getting myself into risky situations because I prefer to live a hassle-free life devoid of drama. This is why I don’t ever instigate. Besides, I figured, I could live vicariously through my friends!
But as you grow older, you can’t help but assimilate into society. You’re not living if you don’t make a few gambles… when you live, I guess you’re supposed to live colorfully. You’re supposed to experience all sorts of highs and lows and in the end, it’s all really a matter of perspective in a looking-at-the-glass-half-full kind of way. So I’ve grown up a bit as a person and I think my friends have as well, and maybe as we all grow older and as our priorities change, one thing is certain and that is we’ll always have each other for fun and support.