Top: Bangkok Shop | Floral Skirt: Urban Hour | Heels: Fendi | Bag: Givenchy | Earrings: Forever 21 | Wrist Wrap: Tory Burch
I’m terribly sorry for not updating this week, I’ve been preoccupied the last few days with random responsibilities hence the lack of blog posts.
I’m pretty sure you’re all wondering: “What’s she got to be so busy about, I thought she was resigning!”
Yes (please insert sigh), I am in fact, technically hands-off company-related projects but you know, I’m human and I’m getting really anxious (and excited) about my impending resignation so I’ve been finding ways to distract myself by undertaking unrelated tasks that will prevent me from being too introspective about life in general.
Although I’m seemingly confrontational in nature (especially when it involves problems and people), I am actually quite evasive when it comes to my own thoughts. The sheer irony, huh? Maybe it’s how I avoid feelings.
I’m not very good with feelings, to be honest. I’ve been told on numerous occasions that I’m hardly ever emotional. As a child, my father forbade me to cry–it is not the trait of the strong, he once told me (I’ve come to realize that my dad hated crying because he wasn’t as strong as he made himself out to be and probably wouldn’t know how to handle crying individuals in general).
I’ve been called “stoic” and “heartless” by former friends and paramours… and to an extent, I was. More of cut-throat to be honest, wherein I was very vocal when I didn’t agree to something, and it was pretty easy for me to sever ties. It takes a lot of effort for me to genuinely feel sad or panicked (though I’ve mastered the trait to cry on command the moment I realized that crying could get me out of trouble in an instant) and a lot of effort for me to express happiness.
I’m much better now though at expressing myself. I’ve allowed myself to be receptive to emotions and I’ve allowed myself to feel more passionately. It’s a work in progress… but situations like this make me wish that it would have been better had I truly been as apathetic as people made me out to be.
I envy people who can just uproot their lives and easily get over situations. I find it easy to move on from people but I’m usually very sentimental when it comes to situations and places. It’s really hard to explain…
I wish I could wander off from one place to another and start anew at the snap of my fingers.
Or maybe I just have to stop over-thinking things.
Anyway, here’s another work-inspired outfit I put on for work recently.
Quick announcements! Firstly, please don’t forget to drop by the Manila Sundance Bazaar at the Metrotent starting today until Sunday. Joanna and I will be there tomorrow afternoon to see you lovely shopaholics so I do hope to catch everyone there!
Next! Remember my free makeover contest brought to you by Matrix, the #1 leader in salon hair products? They’ve finally chosen a winner (yes, it took a while, sorry).
The winners for the #ProjectWonderful contest will be announced within the week. I’m just waiting for the Globe Telecom people to make their final pick. Have a happy weekend, everyone!